9/24/17

I had a fever of over 101 yesterday, so I got sent home from work.
I'm terrified my boss is going to fire me from it.
I also haven't been able to stop coughing for the past month =(

9/17/17

Why do good people have to die?
He has cancer and he's been in the hospital for over a month now.
It's not fair.
I'm drinking and sleeping around to deal with it.
I should be a better friend but I can't fucking handle it.
There's this sweet boy I fucked a week ago after he bought me a drink.
I would like him. He's a gentleman and quite a lovely guy.
But I'm in love with someone who's dying from cancer.
Fuck fuck fuck.

9/3/17

I'm a bit sick right now. I think it's just a cold but it also comes with a pretty annoying cough so... yay?

I'm in the process of trying to get through the boyfriend's head that I do not want to be in a relationship. He still calls me his girlfriend and uses other pet names.
What do I have to do, fuck someone else right in front of him??

8/27/17

I'm pretty sure my neighbors don't sleep? They were slamming doors and yelling at like 2:30am last night while I was getting drunk, and then they woke me up at like 7:30am. Sometimes they wake me up at 5am.
I'm considering investing in heavy duty sleeping pills. 3-4 hours of sleep per night with a full time job and not keeping food down is not what I need right now.

8/20/17

I got a raise. $11.50/hr now. How exciting.

My boyfriend still refuses to acknowledge that I want to break up with him. I'm not sure how he doesn't get it. I don't even try to hide my irritation with him or the fact that I don't want to be with him.

I think he's just using me for my money. I work 35-40 hours a week. He works 20-25 and makes like $9/hr.

Not my fault he isn't trying to better himself. Why does he insist on dragging me down with him?

8/13/2017

Hm. Not sure what to say really. I've decided to take days off from eating to relieve stress. Who needs to eat every day? I have to eat today but tomorrow will be a blissful break from that <3

8/6/17

My coworker made a joke about me self harming last night. That was not what I needed. I'm really trying to quit and I'm doing pretty well. It's been a few months since my last slip up.
This is the same coworker who is one of those slutty *gamer girls* who plays one or two games a little bit and thinks she's a hardcore gamer.
Ugh.