55.5

No idea

Still feel terribly sick. Sad face. I don't think my body can handle alcohol anymore. Shit.

Birthday

No not mine. My fiance's. His birthday was yesterday. 21st birthday. I'm sure you know what that means... sigh.

I'm really proud of myself though. I felt no temptation to overindulge whatsoever!

Sadly, he insisted I eat cookies and cake and chips with him.

I've felt like complete shit since I woke up around 9am. It's 7:30pm now.

I suppose that's my punishment for eating too much, yes?

Oh and my baby kitten is sleeping in my lap =D

I'm really not trying to turn my blog into a thinspo blog. I just don't know what to say and I keep finding lovely pictures...

55.3

Exercise
50 pushups
100 leg lifts (per side)
Repeat until satisfied that all consumed calories (+100) have been burned off. Or collapse. Whichever comes last.

Please God, let this work...

So I created my own little hideout here. Okay, it's not really a hideout since the fiance knows exactly where it is. But I told him that it's only for me and my kitten. I can go hide there and play computer games and read (Just read Center of Winter... oh my God it's a good book!) and drink coffee and tea and cuddle with my purr monster... it's wonderful! =D And I can exercise to my heart's content. Muahaha! I'm so happy right now. =D

I was all hyper today because I had about a pot of coffee and no food. XD Yay!

Sorry for posting so much by the way. >_<

The boy thinks all I want is sex. Sigh. It's depressing. I don't want sex. At all. Is that bad? It's not him. It's just sex. I don't want it.

So I got those two posts up. I had two drafts in my posts list apparently. They're published. Not sure if either is finished. They're not particularly important so probably don't bother reading. XD

55.3

Frustration

I had this whole post written out but either a) my computer won't load it (it won't load the page of posts) or b) it just lost it because my internet's being spazzy as fuck right now.

No I'm not adopted but I still think it's sweet. =)

Home

Probably gained more than I'd like to know. I was constantly drinking and eating while I was at my mom's. The problem? Her roommate had made this AMAZING sangria and Greek spinach thing for the party and she had made a ton of it. Also there was a ton of yummy wine around the house and my mom doesn't mind me drinking it. Her roommate didn't either. Ugh. We did go on a lot of walks and stuff but we went out to eat like 3 times in those 5 days. Wait no. 4 times. T_T

Ah well. I'm getting back on track! I just got back from spending a few hours at the park with my fiance and our puppy

Thanks for the dog walking tip. =D I'll definitely try that.

Currently I'm in Ohio visiting my mom. Oh excuse me. We are. He's laying next to me (actually, on the other side of the bed, as far from me as possible) snoring and shit. Strange considering he never snores. Ugh. Obviously our relationship is perfectly fine, yes?

But I don't want to break up... I've messed up too much to be with him.

I want to cry.

And I really don't want to be with him anymore. He doesn't make me happy. He makes me feel like an object. I hate that.

And he got all mad at me today because I didn't want him to use my computer to go on a kinda shady sounding site. It's like... really? It's *my* computer, not yours. -_-

At least my family likes him? He and my stepbrother had a great time talking about hot sauce/peppers and cooking all evening. >_<

La dee da. Not weighing myself. Going to the airport to fly up to Ohio to see my mom tomorrow morning. Yay?

Some random guy in a truck was driving by the other day and called me cute. It was odd. >_<

And we had to rescue 4 kittens. The owner of them said we could go into his house whenever he wanted. He's kinda rage-quitting life right now. For example, he's a few months behind on his rent and power bill, but he has every light on in there. In the middle of the day. Anyway. He was starving these poor kittens and we had to call his ex (one of the kittens was hers) and get her to come take them, even though she's not allowed to have cats where she lives.

It was exciting I guess?

Ran with my puppy today. She's getting better at this whole not-getting-under-my-feet thing. =)