April 25, 2016


Finals start this week. Technically it's the last week of classes, but a lot of professors are just doing their exams now. Woot.
I'm too stressed to comprehend anything right now.

April 21, 2016


My therapist apparently thinks I've been through traumatic events.

I just want to sleep.

April 18, 2016


Appointment with therapist today after class.

I can't wait until the semester ends. 2 more weeks of classes and one week of finals.
Then I'm going to stop eating.
I don't want to deal with food anymore.

April 15, 2016


veggie burger and steamed broccoi

sleeping kitty ^_^

view outside my bedroom window last weekend

bracelet I got in Mexico

I thought I ate a ton yesterday before work. Yet somehow I still got super dizzy at work. What the fuck.

April 12, 2016


So the counseling center called me and made me reschedule the appointment I didn't go to. Fuck. Guess I'm not done with therapy =/ fuck fuck fuck can't I just stop getting treated like a crazy person? Let me stick to 500 calories a day, throwing up anything that goes over that, and leave me alone damnit. I'm an adult, I can make these choices for myself.

April 08, 2016


@Bella - I'll post pictures when I get some transferred over to my computer =) he's a cutie

So I skipped therapy on Wednesday even though I was supposed to go. Oops. Decided I'm done with it. I'm fine. I'm a psych major. If I have to, I can fix myself.

My sore throat and cough are still very present though and it's really annoying so I might call the doctor on Monday and make an appointment. I dunno. I don't want to deal with all that but I really want to stop coughing so much. I'm just scared they'll notice that I've been purging recently. I don't want a lecture.
Also I'm too fat to deserve medical care for something as innocent as a cold (probably).


April 05, 2016


Still feeling slightly sick but way better than I was.

Boyfriend and I got a cat (did I mention that? Probably) and he's been following me around and rubbing against me all morning. It's really sweet.

I have 2 exams today.

I think I'm going to stop seeing my therapist. I'm not sick. I don't need help. Just sweet starvation.

April 02, 2016


Still sick and I have a fucking cough that won't go away. I'm fairly sure it's not serious (not like I'd go to a doctor if it was. I don't think I could handle being weighed right now) so I'm still working.

There's this new guy in my life and I want him so fucking much but I'm in a serious relationship and we've been together for a year and I really care about him and he's fantastic in bed and an incredibly supportive boyfriend and I don't know what to do.