June 15, 2011

No idea


I felt thin one day. Apparently I'm a fatass even on my thin days.




The rolls of fat everywhere. Yeah. I know. It's gross. Reverse thinspo, yes? =D

Pics I like -

I find this one to be very true actually, even though they're supposed to be funny/offensive ^


This reminds me of Naruto... that one exam where the whole point was to see how well you can cheat =D


Long but I loved it. For LOTR/Harry Potter fans =)
(The opinions presented are not my own)

Points if you can name what they're referring to =D

Remind me to mention how Harry Potter is a metaphor for Christianity...

This is me

Also me =)

Gorgeous thinspo, yes?

I don't really like kids :3

Yes, I am Christian. I also know how to laugh. -_-

Why you should sleep with a teddy bear =)

I have a crush on this guy =)

Yeah. I don't know.

My mom is getting home tomorrow.

The French exchange student is coming tomorrow.

I'm leaving for Europe June 22. Won't be back until July 22.

I might try to blog while I'm there.

Love you all <3

June 14, 2011


I ate dinner. Green bell pepper and a ton of baby carrots with hummus. Great idea, yeah? Ha. It was around 9pm. Fucking stupid idea. And I was drinking diet coke like a fish yesterday. I think I got through 3 bottles... 24oz bottles.

61 minutes of exercise yesterday.

2.5 24oz bottles of diet coke sitting next to me.

I wonder what tomorrow will bring?

I really want jelly beans.

I think I'll have a sugar b/p today. I have to go buy chocolate for my stepdad's birthday. It's this local place that makes handmade chocolate. It's good I think. I don't remember. Haven't had it in a while. They have a line of vegan chocolate though. So that's cool. Might get some of that and then run up to the grocery store and get jelly beans.

Yeah I'm a fatass.

I don't give a fuck.

Umm...I thought I had something witty to say, but I guess not.

I'm wearing size 6 jeans and I feel like a fat pig. They're almost falling off me. I don't know how this makes me feel enormously fat, but it does. Does anyone else get that feeling? I can't be the only one...

Hope you're all doing better than me.

June 12, 2011


What the fuck? I was such a fat bitch yesterday. Didn't eat anything all day then around 9pm I went to the mall with a friend and got a tall soy latte from Starbucks. Also had half a bottle of diet coke.

And I was 123.6lbs this morning.

How the hell did that happen???

I'm gonna b/p my ass off today. Why? Cause I can, bitches.

June 10, 2011


How the fuck did that happen?

To answer your questions - I'm 5'2" >.<

Today I ate some chips and 2 clif bars. Purged it all. I've felt sick all day.

I'm still a fat bitch

My stepdad's leaving around 2am.

I think I'll b/p after he leaves.

I know for sure I won't be sleeping

Maybe I will

I'm so damn tired

I'm sorry

I'll update tomorrow night with my weight I guess. I'll probably gain, but I'll try to walk all day tomorrow so hopefully that will help =)


fat bitch

June 09, 2011

Because I love you guys...

Picture post!

I have nothing interesting to say. I'll be out of the country June 22 - July 22 =)

I find this amusing because I live in Ohio and I've actually thought about this XD And the Wright brothers...man, we suck at making people want to stay here!

People hiding =)

Click to make it bigger XD It's Ron Weasley's inbox!

I don't smoke, but I thought this was cute =) Reminds me of "I swear to drunk I'm not God" ^_^

Long, but epic ^_^

Random thinspo!

Something all you lovely people should be saying =)

Paradise =)

Religion commentary =)

A cool, creepy photo gallery - Alice in Wonderland Don't look if blood and stuff creeps you out! It's very artistic imho, but in a very dark, gothic way =) DEFINITELY worth a look though

Hmm... I don't know what to talk about...

There's this guy. (What the fuck, Vampire? Really?) We stay up late talking all the time. Like 3-4 in the morning late. About deep stuff. Life, the depths of the mind, controlling your own fears and stuff... he makes me dizzy...


I need to shave my legs. I have a date tomorrow night. I don't like him as more than a friend, but I think he knows that, so it's okay. He's a great friend.

Why do I have all these great friends but never anything more?

Oh...I made a bracelet...it's pretty...I've been making a lot of bracelets recently...it calms me and it takes an hour, more if I'm texting people and stuff...good distraction...

That was my first attempt =) I've gotten a bit better

Oh well. Bye, lovelies <3 I'll try to blog again soon. Sorry for the piles of pics XD

June 05, 2011

This made me happy

Also I've gotten some comments (mostly through private messages on YouTube) on my video... wow =)

Sophie - thank you ^^

I was 127.8 yesterday. Mom made me eat a really big dinner (500cals approximately) but I didn't go over 800cals for the day. I still feel like a fat pig.

I wish I could get out...

Oh! I got my schedule for the fall semester =D

Monday, Wednesday, Friday
Intro to psych - 12:45 - 1:50
Chinese 101 - 3:20 - 4:30

Tuesday, Thursday
Physics 101 - 9:30 - 10:45
French 301 - 2:15 - 3:30
English 111 - 4:10 - 5:25


I'm a linguistics-psychology double major, with a potential Chinese minor. So...yes :3 I'm very excited ^_^

And yesterday my mom said I should join Spectrum - the LGBT club thing at the university =D Ahh she's finally accepting that I like girls!!!

And and and it was sooo funny when I mentioned what I'm majoring in to my friend and he was like "a cutter majoring in psychology...that's like a murderer majoring in criminology" Totally cracked me up for some reason.


How are you lovely ladies? (and any guys that read, of course <3 <3)

June 02, 2011


I binged last night. I could have said no. So easily. But I didn't. Why? Cause I'm a fucking pathetic bulimic. Woot.

I just found out this morning that my grandma is sick in the hospital. Like, really sick. They don't know what's wrong with her. There's a lot of complicated stuff going on with that now.

Weight yesterday: 129.6lbs

Fucking fatass

I'm going to the university tomorrow. Staying until Saturday. Except after all the orientation shit, we're going on a fucking PICNIC with my stepsister and her husband and probably her baby. Fuck. Thankfully I'll be away from my parents the whole time (except for that picnic) so I'll just not eat until then. Ah fuck my stomach hurts

My stomach always hurts when I eat. It kinda scares me.

Oh well.

Peace out, bitches