My therapist wants me to get a medical checkup from a doctor because she's concerned about my health because I've been purging more. I think she's over-reacting. It's not that bad.
March 30, 2016
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It may be that my therapist thinks that my purging is related to my anxiety (I may have given her that impression >_<), so she thinks that dealing with the anxiety will help the purging as well.
I have no clue if it will or if I even want it to.
I realized recently that Kind breakfast bars (110 calories each), broccoli (steamed), baby carrots (cut long-ways into fourths), and thinly sliced radishes are basically my only safe foods =/ Veggie burgers and tuna make me way too anxious. They're too high calorie (yes, I know tuna has fewer calories than those Kind bars, but then I get anxious because it's an animal and ... ugh.)
Also, those sparkling ICE waters are so good <3
March 21, 2016
So I told my therapist today about my purging and how it seems to be getting a bit out of hand. But she's still focusing on my anxiety and how uncomfortable I am with it. She might be right, I don't know. She did say she has a plan for me and outlined it today - first, she wants me to feel like her office is a safe space for me, then she wants to help me make the rest of my life feel safe for me, and after that she wants to deal with my "emotional issues" stemming from all the bad things that have happened to me.
No clue if it'll work but we'll see. I don't think I'll be bringing up eating issues with her again. I'll just lose as much weight as possible. It's clearly not an issue.
March 20, 2016
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|black swan in China|
|university campus in China|
March 09, 2016
|place setting from a dinner at the university where I was studying in China|
|black swan in China =)|
In the interest of being healthy, I went grocery shopping yesterday and got a bag of frozen broccoli/cauliflower, a pack of veggie burgers, a box of 100-calorie cups of Italian ice, fat free yogurt, and granola. The yogurt/granola is for work because I learned the hard way that if I don't eat, I get really sick and dizzy =/
Look at me being all grown up =P
@Aye - the gum thing is an oral fixation thing for me I think. I love minty ones especially. But candles? Yeah the food-scented ones are my weakness T_T
March 06, 2016
|A little wooden box from home =)|
|I have a gum problem T_T|
|And a candle problem T_T|
I survived yesterday! Getting a day off today and going back to work tomorrow. Woot.
March 05, 2016
Doing a double shift at work today. Whee. (That's not a bad as it sounds. We open at 12 - though I had to be there at 11 - and close at 10 - though I'll probably stay later to clean up the kitchen. Also, I got off work at 3:20 and I'm going back at 6, so I get a few hours break)
Spring break started yesterday but I'm working every day of it except Tuesday and Sunday. Once again, whee. XD
Whatever. Work is fun and it burns loads of calories. Also getting to be around delicious food is honestly pretty fun. I mean, I get to mess around with it and no one expects me to eat it. How is that not perfect?
March 01, 2016
|ceramic potatoes in a shop by my apartment|
|the hotel i stayed in my last night in China, right by the airport|