April 17, 2011

Aww ^_^

Just another ordinary girl...aw thank you <3 I love you too! And no...I haven't heard of that story o.O

Skittles - by "pure Russian" I just mean my family hasn't really mixed with non-Russians much. You know how everyone in America is like Irish/English/French/Polish/German/bunch-of-other-nationalities? My family doesn't have that mix. That's all I meant ^_^

Wow...56 followers ^_^ I feel so loved

And because the world likes screwing with my mind...
In a previous post, I mentioned thinking that I might like girls... well, this seems pretty certain now...I kind of (maybe, totally, in denial) like this girl in one of my classes and uh...yeah -_- I've also realized I don't really like guys (what the HELL? What am I smoking?? I thought these just had nicotine... T_T)
So here's the mindfuck part... One of my best friends just told me he's in love with me. I mean, I knew he loved me as a friend (don't worry, it's mutual!), but uh... >.> yeah. Sigh. He knows what's going on with the girl I like and stuff, and he knows how I feel about guys right now. I really hope he finds someone who actually likes him. Or I go back to liking guys like a good Christian girl.

On the food front...sigh. (Yeah these definitely have something besides nicotine...) I've been throwing up a ton. It's so effortless and it makes me feel so much better.

Oh and I said I'd post my weight...Ugh. Wet hair, dressed, this morning - 60.0kg. Woot I'm a fatass.

Nyeh. It'll get better. Everything will get better. <3

(Just because I don't comment doesn't mean I don't read your blog...Just saying. I promise I do read every word all you lovely ladies write!)


  1. I'm like you. I read a bunch of blogs but I don't comment unless I have something to say. Sometimes I just have no clue what to say so I say nothing. Wet hair and clothes can add a fair amount of weigh. Like a kg or more.

  2. ya, I feel bad I don't comment nearly as much as I read.....

    When I was 16 or 17 I started feeling bi-curious. Had a couple of lovely experiences with girls. So soft! It was fun but when push came to shove I knew I couldn't live my whole life without a man. Girls were more of a phase. I didn't know how to be the dominant one and trying made me feel like a frumpy dork. And I wasn't attracted to butch type girls who would be dominant.

    funny: your best guy friend telling you he's in love with you--I had that same thing happen too. I was with one guy and it was high drama all the time. And my best guy friend was always a good support and escape and light hearted fun. He wrote me a letter outlining his fantasy of us together. In time, we did end up making out a couple of times. In high school, everyone ELSE knew he was gay. I had no idea. turned out, he was.


  3. Good luck with all of your crazy events! You're right: everything does get better, and then it turns out all shiny and beautiful.

    Jenn - what's funny is that my first love (unrequited and one-sided though it was) was gay. I remain one of the few people to whom he's come out, but it was really quite devastating at the time to find out.


  4. The whole liking girls thing is scary. I like girls too. I try not to think about it. I can't talk about with my family. I feel like a sin. Don't know if you feel that way or not. It's hard. Who knows though. Maybe it is just a phase. No matter what, I'm here for ya.


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