April 17, 2011

Aww ^_^

Just another ordinary girl...aw thank you <3 I love you too! And no...I haven't heard of that story o.O

Skittles - by "pure Russian" I just mean my family hasn't really mixed with non-Russians much. You know how everyone in America is like Irish/English/French/Polish/German/bunch-of-other-nationalities? My family doesn't have that mix. That's all I meant ^_^


Wow...56 followers ^_^ I feel so loved

And because the world likes screwing with my mind...
In a previous post, I mentioned thinking that I might like girls... well, this seems pretty certain now...I kind of (maybe, totally, in denial) like this girl in one of my classes and uh...yeah -_- I've also realized I don't really like guys (what the HELL? What am I smoking?? I thought these just had nicotine... T_T)
So here's the mindfuck part... One of my best friends just told me he's in love with me. I mean, I knew he loved me as a friend (don't worry, it's mutual!), but uh... >.> yeah. Sigh. He knows what's going on with the girl I like and stuff, and he knows how I feel about guys right now. I really hope he finds someone who actually likes him. Or I go back to liking guys like a good Christian girl.

On the food front...sigh. (Yeah these definitely have something besides nicotine...) I've been throwing up a ton. It's so effortless and it makes me feel so much better.

Oh and I said I'd post my weight...Ugh. Wet hair, dressed, this morning - 60.0kg. Woot I'm a fatass.

Nyeh. It'll get better. Everything will get better. <3


(Just because I don't comment doesn't mean I don't read your blog...Just saying. I promise I do read every word all you lovely ladies write!)

4 comments:

  1. I'm like you. I read a bunch of blogs but I don't comment unless I have something to say. Sometimes I just have no clue what to say so I say nothing. Wet hair and clothes can add a fair amount of weigh. Like a kg or more.

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  2. ya, I feel bad I don't comment nearly as much as I read.....

    When I was 16 or 17 I started feeling bi-curious. Had a couple of lovely experiences with girls. So soft! It was fun but when push came to shove I knew I couldn't live my whole life without a man. Girls were more of a phase. I didn't know how to be the dominant one and trying made me feel like a frumpy dork. And I wasn't attracted to butch type girls who would be dominant.

    funny: your best guy friend telling you he's in love with you--I had that same thing happen too. I was with one guy and it was high drama all the time. And my best guy friend was always a good support and escape and light hearted fun. He wrote me a letter outlining his fantasy of us together. In time, we did end up making out a couple of times. In high school, everyone ELSE knew he was gay. I had no idea. turned out, he was.

    xo

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  3. Good luck with all of your crazy events! You're right: everything does get better, and then it turns out all shiny and beautiful.

    Jenn - what's funny is that my first love (unrequited and one-sided though it was) was gay. I remain one of the few people to whom he's come out, but it was really quite devastating at the time to find out.

    <3.

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  4. The whole liking girls thing is scary. I like girls too. I try not to think about it. I can't talk about with my family. I feel like a sin. Don't know if you feel that way or not. It's hard. Who knows though. Maybe it is just a phase. No matter what, I'm here for ya.

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