Period

Yay?

At least I'm not pregnant...

-insert sigh of relief here-

And that explains the bloating and weight gain and bitchiness and... ahhh I've never been so happy to see my period! XD

55.7

Which is why I haven't wanted to blog. I've been drinking coffee like crazy though. And I went on a cleaning spree the other day and cleaned the whole house. Haha. I'm trying to train my puppy to run on a leash and it's not working very well.... whenever I get anywhere above a super fucking slow jog, she'll decide that she needs to run right in front of my feet. Ridiculous, considering how long her leash is. Ugh... -_- Advice?

Those are my babies. =D Zorro sleeping between my fiance's arms while he's playing Fable and Akira being chill. ^_^ Adorable, aren't they?

Zorro

We found a stray cat. His name is Zorro. He's black, white, and adorable. And he gets along fairy well with my puppy. Yay!

Friday, we moved into our new place. More yay. I'll get pictures of my kitten and my puppy up next time I blog.

Favorite game right now - Fable 2. So fun!

Love you!

126.4

Fully clothed, wearing boots with thick heels, after having had a veggie burger and tons of water. Still fat as hell.

On the positive side, my iron/protein levels are apparently fine. Actually I'm healthy as shit. How do I know this? I went to a checkup.

Oh and when they did the blood test (I'm sure you know what I'm talking about - where they prick your finger) I got dizzy as fuck and got super fucking close to passing out. For no apparent reason. Fucking a.

56.0

Okay... this was after 2 cups of coffee (the super fatty chocolate raspberry one...sigh I'm a fatass), a few cups of water, and a full day of eating (no not an all day binge, just eating when I got dizzy because we were walking a lot as usual)... oh and wearing my collar and a Chinese charm and all... blah blah blah. But still. I'll be better though =) I promise!

My puppy got her first squeaky chew toy. This might sound like a terrible idea but it actually isn't. XD She doesn't actually know how to make it squeak but whenever she does it accidentally she'll sit there and whimper a little about it. We think it's either because she feels bad that she hurt her toy or that she wants to make it squeak again and she doesn't know how. Still adorable as hell. XD

Cheers!

Aw... those nice comments made me cry a little... especially Sofie's. Thank you! <3

Was gonna weigh myself this morning but someone made me eat breakfast because we had a busy day... fucking a!

Tomorrow. I have to!

A little worried about my weight since I have a habit of letting myself get dehydrated and the fiance's been getting me to drink more water so I'm afraid that might make my weight go up.

Other yummy things I've been drinking (I feel it's worth a mention... some of you ladies/gentlemen might like them!)
-Folger's Black Silk (best black coffee I've tasted! So good ^_^)
-Chocolate raspberry (sadly this requires creamer to taste good... 10cals a cup, once every day or two... not too bad, though obviously taken into account)
-various fruit flavored green/white teas (Lipton/Stash) - no sugar/anything. They're yummy by themselves!
-iced Black Silk. (3 parts coffee, 1 part water - put in plastic pitcher and put in fridge - keeps for half a week or a week. Very good! It's like Starbucks iced coffee (no sugar) but more accessible!)

Hmm... I think that's it.

Thank you for reading. <3

Never blogging again

I can't deal with mean comments right now. Or ever.

Fiance was here when I read them and he saw them and said that's ridiculous since I don't even eat burgers (I'm vegetarian). Didn't really help. And I know I'm way under 175. I think. I don't know.

Still feel like shit right now. And I have to try to be healthy/not lose weight too fast because they weigh you every time you donate plasma (twice a week) and they won't let you donate if you're losing weight too fast.

I feel like shit right now. I'm sorry.

On my fucking period. Don't want to know how much I weigh.

22:32

54.1

Thin? My fucking fat ass....

We're getting the kitten as soon as we find a place to move into. So... before September!

The kitten's name is Stinker, but the guy giving him to us doesn't mind if we rename it. I wanted to name it Spyro, but apparently I'm not allowed to do that so... grr. Ideas?

Douchebag

We were at the fiance's friend's house yesterday. He's not a terrible person. He's the person giving me a kitten. (Oh! I didn't mention this... ahaha sorry I texted all my friends about it but for those of you who I don't text... YEAH I'M GETTING A KITTEN! Even though I have a cat allergy... ugh it's not too bad so I should be okay! He's black and white and sooo cute ^_^) And I dunno... he's not a *bad* person, but he does have more jerk moments than he needs to.

So what happened first was he said something slightly offensive (sexual joke) about girls. Nothing horrible. Or else I didn't understand it. Haha. And my fiance looked at me, laughing, and said I can hit him. Then jerkface got all ticked off and he was all "I would never let a sub hit me, even playfully."

Then we stopped at a gas station to get snacks. Fiance got me a Monster Rehab (10cals each, the lemonade one is awesome). And jerkface started ranting about how I'm too thin and how he's going to give me super fattening food and stuff. Btw I'm not thin at all! Ugh. It was terrible.

So... yeah not in a good mood right now.

Though I guess I should be happy that a few people said I looked too thin/scrawny? Even though that's impossible considering my weight...

Nyeh whatever.

Dude.

I'm getting a kitten.

FUCK YES!

53.3

I guess it could be worse...

Please don't ask me how much I weigh. Even I don't want to know.

Dunno...

Played about 5 hours of Oblivion (the game before Skyrim in that series) in the past evening/morning. Woot?

La dee da. I got a book of 100 sudoku so I'm happy =) It's really cute and small. ^_^

54.1

Thanks for the comment. =)

Fiance's inside arguing with his parents over the phone right now.

Deciding my future.

Yay?

Do all these pictures bother you guys? Should I have a separate blog for them?

53.0

I'm starting Oblivion.

Yay?

54.4

53.3

Fat as fuck. Don't care. La dee da.

Only staying with him because it's easier than dealing with another break up.

Yay?

53.3

Fat fuck.

I don't want to be worshiped though...

Saw 52.1 on my scale yesterday. 52.4 today. I'm on my period though so I don't know what to trust...

Wow. Thank you all so much for your comments. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

About the guy: We're trying to work things out. (His cute nickname is "Wolfy") and he's doing a "Wolfy 2.0 beta" thing (idea off Big Bang Theory). Basically, he just tries to improve on anything I don't like. So... if this doesn't work, he's out.

Um. Dunno.

I'll never bitch about how unloved I am. Hold me to that.

I love all of you.

I can't deal with this anymore. All he does is play video games and fuck me when he's bored. All I'm good for is sex. Or showing off. "Hey look... I got a girl even though I'm a nerd!"

I'm tired of this.

He left me home alone for 4 days straight even though I cut myself up on the first day and he knew about it.

I wish I had someone who cared.

I know it's too much to ask for and I don't deserve it but that's really all I want.

I'm sorry.

I guess right now my blog is like my friend. Someone I can talk to about anything. You know?

If you read this and don't hate me... you're probably a saint.

In a non-religious sense.

I've been playing Skyrim and drinking 0cal lemonade. Yay?

(I take no credit for the photo - just some healthy food inspiration)

The puppies are great. They've been fighting a lot recently but they've also been loving as hell, so it's a bit confusing... It's like they're bipolar puppies. We used to think they were stoner puppies. Oh how puppies change... Haha.

53.2

Still nothing to say...

I might get a job at Starbucks.

Yay?

53.9

No update. Just an old Postsecret I found around father's day.

Blah blah blah I'm probably gonna be pregnant with how much sex I have. It's a bit depressing really.

I dunno what to say.

Hi?

I love you for reading this, if you do.

<3