Neither of my biological parents has contacted me in days. Usually my mom emails me every day. Its strange. Either something happened or theyve finally given up on me like Ive been waiting for them to do since the first time I stuck my fingers down my throat. Haha. Or maybe they found this blog and saw I gained weight and decided theyll talk to me when Im less of a failure. m.gmail.com makes me both depressed and happy. Thin by Grace Bowman is a captivating book. I wish I was a better daughter. I wish I was better.