Magic

I adore this game. Somehow I've only lost once. I started playing (slowly) this summer. I now have a kick-ass goblin flinging/cat producing/Mob Boss infiltrated/life-gain deck. If you know what that means, I think you're my best friend. =D Ahaha... anyway. If you ever get a chance to try this game - I seriously recommend it. I know, it's nerdy beyond all belief. But it's so fun!

Anywayy...

Eating has been shit. There are plans for this. Worry not. =D Just have to get the boy to stop thinking he needs to eat EVERY FUCKING MEAL with me. God what the fuck...

Oh and my mom found an apartment for us that's $340 a month. And my dad is being a douchebag to her. What else is new?

La la la.

Inspirational picture time?

D'aw...

No pretty collar comments? T_T

XD

Okay so I'm thinking thin AND healthy. Obviously. In case you haven't noticed. XD Meaning... sure restrict calories to like 500 a day and shit. But it better be 500 healthy calories, not just 2 packs of Skittles or whatever, however tempting that may be (wait... That's actually a really good idea! 2 packs - each containing 5 colors. Divide them up so you're eating 1 color every hour! Then, to downsize your calories, get a big bag of those mini packs of Skittles (where there are like 10 in the whole pack) and just eat 2 of those a day... wait... I might actually have to consider this... o_O That and coffee... DUDE I'D BE SO HYPER AND I WOULD GET EVERYTHING DONE HOLY SHIT THAT'S A FUCKING AWESOME IDEA)

...Well hey it's not like anyone reads this anyway so. XD

Pictures?

Okay that looks too oily.. but it would be yummy if you took all the oil out! And the tomatoes..

54.7

Fatass fatass fatass.

And a picture of my collar... totally not a dog collar!

10,000 sugars please

I adore this man. =)

Some douche called my collar a dog collar today. Ugh... whatever. It's way prettier than any dog collar. =D

I'm in a surprisingly good mood considering how fat I am. XD

Picture time?

Ohhh intake for today. Its gross.
-more green tea than any person should ever drink
-almost 1 cucumber (my dog demands that all our food be shared with her and she adores cucumbers) with a little hot sauce
-2 apples (80cals each)
-a snickers (wtf wtf wtf)

Not the best day. =/

I carried a 35lb bag of dog food though! The boy left it in the kitchen and I carried it down the hall where we keep her dog food. I felt all empowered. XD I had to lift it up to pour the food into the container we put her food into. XD

Motivation

I have apples, hot sauce, cucumbers, green tea, coffee, and water. This will work goddamnit.

Edit:

I keep thinking of things I want to say in this blog during the day. Thoughts and such. Nothing consequential. I just use this blog as a diary of sorts, in case you can't tell.

I was watching Gossip Girl earlier. First episode of the second season. Blair was waiting for Chuck to say he loves her. It got me thinking... some girls (a lot? only a few? I'm not sure...) wait to hear the words "I love you". Me? I wait to hear the words "kneel, pet". ...sometimes I think I'm messed up.

T_T

What do you guys think? What words do you want to hear? Romantically speaking... 

Still on my fucking period.

Le sigh.

Fat

No comment. Don't want to talk about it.

Oh and I'm still sick. Potentially sicker. Why? Because last night, we had to go rescue a haunted house. We normally don't go to this place on Sunday nights because we want a break and Sundays are their least busy days. But last night, there were only about 5 people there (to scare customers), so we decided - hey let's go help! Sadly, this place has no heating and there's nowhere warm to go nearby. Which isn't as bad as it sounds, because it is still warmer inside than outside thanks to how crowded it is (meaning really small, narrow rooms/hallways), all the animatronics running (I'd assume they produce some heat...), and how much moving around we have to do. Still... cold as hell. I can barely talk today T_T

Anywayyy... now that I'm done complaining.

I think I need to start posting my weight/intake on here... should I do that?

Pictures

Oh and this is me. Just one picture. I'm fat. I'm sorry.

And to apologize for you guys seeing my nasty upper legs...

More happy pictures!

Thank you for reading!

Smiles!

53.8kg before the party.

Thank you for the birthday comments btw. =D =D =D I love you two! <3

My birthday party was alright... my friend (who has a crush on me T_T) brought her baby. Normally I would  rage, but she has the most perfect little girl ever! That baby is so inquisitive (and apparently mature for her age - her doctor said that today at her check-up) and sweet and obviously healthy, but the only time she cries is when she misses her mom/dad (which is rare, they love her to pieces) and she's barely messy. And she's so quiet the rest of the time. She seems so smart... Ahaha sorry I just hate little kids normally (not hate but... ugh) because they're so loud and shit and I'm like... d'aw this one's quiet!

Oh and I got into that university in Ohio, so.. woot I'm going back to school. Ahaha wasn't sure I would get in because I took one class there in high school and failed it miserably (senioritis + math = bad combination) and they want their transfer students to have a minimum of a 2.5 gpa and mine was 2.49 something because I was lazy as shit second semester at Miami. (And yes, it was second semester. I was on Dean's List first semester T_T) But all is good!

Will commence dieting asap though... now that the party is over.

Happy birthday to me...

Woot. I'm 19 today.

And still fat as fuck.

53.6kg at my last weigh-in (yesterday).

All I want for my birthday is to be happy... I don't think this will ever happen. =/

Sorry for being so depressing.