I have no idea what's going on. Nothing's changed. Oh God. I just need to lose weight. I'm so fat. I'm so disgustingly fat. I have to get rid of this weight. RIGHT FUCKING NOW. I have to be 66lbs. The past few days have been hell and I have no idea why.
I just keep freaking out about how much I weigh. It's not even triggered by anything. It's just this overwhelming knowledge that I weigh 500lbs and I can't figure out how the earth is supporting my weight. Today I couldn't concentrate on physics or spanish even though they're my favorite subjects.
17th birthday on Tuesday.
Can I die now?