Merde

I have a Chinese exam today. In 12 minutes. I'm sitting outside the classroom right now with some other people  from the class who are furiously studying for it. I've given up. I either know it or I don't.

Night before last, I got about 3 hours of sleep. Last night? Maybe half an hour. Fucking hell. It wasn't tossing and turning that kept me up. It was being shaky as fuck. I had 3 Rockstars yesterday. Caffeine? 160 + 240 + 240. = 640mg?

Shit.

Thankfully my Master was up as well (nightmares, he has insomnia) so he kept me from totally flipping the fuck out.

Walking to class was really hard.
Nothing's real. I'm scared. I feel like I'll never sleep again. God I want to sleep.

Thankfully I'm not hungry (in this "fuck it" mindset, hunger could be very dangerous), just really thirsty, so I'm going to get a vitamin water zero after this exam. The idea of food makes me want to throw up. Oh yeah. I threw up last night too. Ahaha. Mostly Rockstar and stomach acid, from the taste. TMI, sorry.

Whatever.

I would do anything to sleep. Time to look for sleeping pills maybe?

At least today's Wednesday.

Oh and thank you, Bobbi (is that your name? It's what was on your profile...), for the comment. =)

I'm definitely moving. Transferring colleges.

Um.

Does anyone know how to do this with the FAFSA (though I don't need money, but don't I need to cancel the FAFSA thing?) and telling my university I'm not coming back? Or does anyone have a guess as to which department in the university could tell me how to deal with this?

Fuck I'm tired.

I'm gonna go take my exam.

I hope you all are having a better day than I am... and a much better night's sleep. <3